What are you looking forward to?

“What are you looking forward to in your day?”

My husband asked me this question as we were eating breakfast this morning, and it took me by surprise. 

It was disruptive.

Not the question so much as my response - or lack thereof - to the question.

I am usually a glass half full kind of person. I find joy in the little things. It doesn’t take much to make me laugh. I delight in the ordinary.

So, having no response ready when Jon asked that question made me instantly dig deeper.

I had just been talking with a friend about transitions in life, creating margin. He had said he and his wife realized they don’t often transition well (his words) and that they wanted to be more aware of that and take deliberate steps toward creating more margin and space for transitions in life.

Recalling the details of that conversation coupled with my lack of response to Jon’s question highlighted that the day ahead of me had tasks waiting, daily chores, things to accomplish/check off the list. But it also woke me up to the reality that I had made an agreement that I wasn’t aware of…the day only contained tasks, chores, things to accomplish. 

But where was the joy? Where was delight?

It was a quiet resignation. It slipped in without my awareness. It tucked itself in, made itself comfortable. It didn’t stand out. It felt familiar…comfortable even.

I’m so glad Jon asked me that question! It was like someone snapped their fingers very close to my face and instantly got my attention. The fog began to clear. And rather than feel frustrated with myself, I chose kindness. I turned my attention to my own heart and to God.

What does my heart need right now? Why did Jon’s question feel so disruptive, Lord? What agreements have I made without realizing it? What am I believing about joy and delight (or the lack of) that you want to redefine for me? 

I don’t yet have an answer to share here with you. This is very much an in-process thing I’m writing about. And I’m okay with that. I trust God to lead me. I’m choosing to go where he’s going. I’m choosing to stay curious.

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